Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Crazy Little Thing Called Love



So what is this crazy little thing called "love"?
Is it a mere mirage
that disappears and fades
as the moments
pass by

Or is it a second
an instant
a though
a flash?




Ok, so here's whats up: is love only a chemical reaction that stimulates us for an instant? Is love what we are forced to believe in thanks to the over romanticized world we live in?

As I write, I think about all the "love" that I have witnessed in my life in all of its phases (my sister's wedding, my parent's constant bickering, my friend's infatuation with the hottie in the grade above, another friend's parents divorced yet amicable). Are these things all love?

Personally, I think that love is something which is felt only at instants. Love is the ability to tolerate your partner's vices. It's the ability to see the good in all things.

Reading Pride and Prejudice I see many kinds of love (the love that is shared between Darcy and Elizabeth at the end of the novel, the honest love felt by the Bennet's uncle and aunt, the forced and unconvincing love felt between Mr. Bennet and Mrs. Bennet). What are all of their stories? Is all of their love true and genuine?

P.S.
ID LIKE TO INVESTIGATE WHICH MARRIAGES IN THE NOVEL ARE CENTERED ON LOVE AND WHICH ON CONVENIENCE FOR MY ANALYTIC ESSAY. GOOD OR BAD IDEA?

A Man's Dilemma

Ok so here's my dilemma....

I talk too much. I'm slightly too comfortable with everyone and honestly, I really don't get embarrassed easily. I tell things as they are and many times, I suffer from this habit. However, when it comes to mushy gooshy things, I tend to hold back... ALOT. I overanalyze and I always question my impulses. And the worst part is that because of my inability to act instinctively (almost Hamlet-like), I almost always get fucked over.

Many times in my life I question my method and I ask myself whether I should change in any way. Maybe hold back a little? Perhaps act a little bit more mysterious?

As I read Pride and Prejudice I find myself looking at the ways that the characters associate with one another. One character which really called my attention was Mr. Darcy. Throughout the whole novel he is seen as a big headed, unsociable ass. He doesn't express himself and constantly repels all types of communication that is addressed at him. He doesn't dance with Elizabeth at any of the balls and all that he does throughout the beginning part of the novel is criticize everyone and everything that he sees.

Darcy seems to have an inability to speak or maybe he is just using this "mask" to hide his true personality. He uses this shell to protect himself and not let anyone near him sentimentally except the people that have always been there for him (Bingley). He has suffered from the things that his good friend Wickham did to him and his sister and he has created this shield in order to protect himself and his family from getting hurt again.

Should I, like Darcy, become a sheltered introverted person because of all the pain that I've had to deal with? Or should I just take out my umbrella and protect myself and my smile from all the world's shit that just keeps tumbling down on me?

Monday, November 29, 2010

Gold Digger

She take my money, well I'm in need
Yeah she's a triflin' friend indeed
Oh she's a gold digger way over time
That digs on me

I aint sayin she a gold digger,
but she ain't messin' with no broke Mr. Darcy
Now I aint sayin she a gold digger,
but she aint messin with no broke Mr. Darcy

Look, personally I have really become attached to Elizabeth Bennet. She is an intelligent, outspoken, and strong woman which does not keep quiet about some of the social paradigms which her family hold so dearly (crazy ass Mrs. Bennet). I respect her for this. Sadly, however, along the middle of the book I noticed something which was quite... disappointing.

It seems funny to me that the first time we are told about Eliza's interest in Mr. Darcy is right after she runs into him at Pemberley and sees his “large, handsome, stone building, standing well on rising ground" (page 181). Do you think that Elizabeth fell in love with Mr. Darcy because of all the things that Mrs. Reynolds says about Mr. Darcy as a man? Or do you think that Elizabeth is merely witnessing the amount of material wealth which Mr. Darcy owns which then induces her newly felt love and interest for Darcy?


You Got Mail

Right now as I am sitting staring at my computer screen, my desk is vibrating wildly due to messages from friends of mine that live in England, Italy, Miami, Spain, and the US. In less than a second, their thoughts are transported almost magically across the air and are expressed to me on my small cellphone's screen. With these modern tools, I am able to check up with my friends that are thousands of miles away in a matter of seconds. In a society that is so advanced technologically and so interconnected, it is difficult to imagine how the Bennets lived. How should it feel to be isolated and alone in the world with the company of a flimsy paper and pen? Would it be possible to nowadays escape from all the viral information we are suffocated with in our everyday life? I think not...




It is incredible to read about how the Bennets' only way of communication was through letters. When Lydia decides to run away with Wickham, I think that the way that Mr. Bennet, Mrs. Bennet, and all the Bennet sisters reacted was absolutely amazing. I think that if I decided to run away with some girl, my parents would go absolutely insane. I think that the society in which we live in has become accustomed to being fed information constantly. Had I lived in 19 century England, then my parents would have just hoped that I would be off getting married in some random town.

Monday, November 22, 2010

Zuleta's Hands


I really enjoyed Zuleta's blog about "Hand Gestures." Believe it or not, I have never watched the movie "Pride and Prejudice." For now, I've preferred to stay away from the movie in order to make my own little movie inside my head. Zuleta's blog, however, showed me a crucial aspect of the novel which I hadn't really focused on. Prejudice in the novel is a very shrouded theme in the novel and personally, in my own little movie I was making in my head prejudice hadn't come up as clearly as it did in the movie "Pride and Prejudice." It's really interesting to see how body language can show so much about inter human relationships. Soon after I finish my reading of Pride and Prejudice I will check out the movie myself!


Thursday, November 18, 2010

Men Men Menly Manly Men Men Men....



HELP:

DOES ANYBODY KNOW HOW A MAN SHOULD ACT NOWADAYS?






Should I wear a "thug life" t-shirt and be a straight up gangsta-homie with everyone I meet?

Should I wear a nicely trimmed tailormade three piece suit with a bowler hat and use big fancy words?

Or how about I just wear a nice tie-dye shirt with some rice-picking purple pants with a big-ass peace sign hanging around my neck and give out only peace and love?



Men have always been evolving. I don't understand, but it seems to be that we have gone through hundreds of fashions and mannerisms in the past century! What is the obsession with showing off and trying to always be the "newer" more "modern" man? Why has it gone from talking about "fancy looking madams in quaint carriages" to "get'n me sum bOaTz & hOezz"?

As a male member of society, it's difficult to know what it is exactly I am supposed to do in order to fit in.

Reading Jane Austen's Pride and Prejudice honestly makes me sort of sad....

I would absolutely love to be alive during this epoch where it is the norm to be a nicely dressed gentlemanlike person. Nowadays, I would just be called a fag for having the audacity to use words like "piqued" or "panegyric" or even the velvety "acquiesce." Characters like Mr. Darcy, Mr. Bingley, Mr. Collins, and Mr. Bennet all make me extremely jealous because I would be more than happy to live like them without getting shot today.

No, but really... I find it really interesting that people have changed so much and it really makes me wonder where we're all going as a people? How might we look in two centuries?

Monday, November 15, 2010

Delicate Diction


Ok so here we were reading about incest, family murders, apocalyptic cannibals, satanic music, prostitutes, and alcohol and suddenly now we begin to read about some poofy-dressed, fancy speaking, english women??? Ok.... so either Mr. Tangen is going through some type of personality crisis or he misspelled the name of the book we were supposed to be reading...

I am really enjoying this novel although the macho misogynist inside of me is telling me not to. I like the fact that in Pride and Prejudice I do not have to dig for any hidden messages. I am simply falling in love with all of the characters and taking their superficial problems and issues and making them mine for the time that I read the book. I love the way that Jane Austen presents all of the characters to us. As readers, we are being spoon fed all of the information and honestly, it is quite lovely. Austen makes it very easy to follow her story and uses very elegant and intricate yet simple language to do so.

For now, I do not have absolutely any criticism. I am enjoying the book and am interested in seeing whether Jane Austen will be able to maintain this effortless grasp on me as an effeminate reader.

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Death and Skull

In Act V Scene I of Hamlet we see the appearance of two very important objects that have a great effect on Hamlet's mental reasoning. I am referring to Yorick's Skull and Ophelia's corpse in Act V Scene I. In this scene, Hamlet is exposed to two lifeless bodies that make him value the unavoidability of death. Throughout the whole play, Hamlet deals with the inner conflict about whether he should or should not kill his uncle and avenge his father's death. Most of the play is made up of Hamlet's long intricate soliloquies in which he expresses his thoughts towards death. Watching David Tennant's version and reading the play, I feel that it is not until this part of the play where Hamlet sees and interacts with Yorick's and Ophelia's dead bodies that heactually decides that he must do something in order to avenge his father. The corpses instigate a certain change in Hamlet's mind and remind Hamlet of the frailty of life. It is because of this that I am convinced that if Hamlet had not been exposed to these emotionally upsetting stimuli, then he would have probably not been able to so aptly kill his uncle.

Philip H. Calderon. The Young Lord Hamlet, 1868.

I found this work very interesting because it depicts Hamlet as a young child. In the highly imaginative scene, Hamlet is actually riding on the back of Yorick. This helps us imagine the relationship that Yorick and Hamlet had and how the encounter with his skull may have affected Hamlet emotionally